Dhyan and Energy

Lying still on the examination table and feeling the movement of the probe on my abdomen for the ultra sound gave me moments of awareness. I was in a state of complete surrender and trying to go into dhyan but the consistent heavy breathing of the technician distracted me. After bearing the pain of constant pressured grinding of the probe on mystomach and listening to the deep frustrating sighs of the technician, I finally opened my eyes and looked at her. I gently asked her if she was tired as she was using her left hand and trying to operate the machine with her right. After a long moment of silence, she replied that this was a doppler test and getting the right images of my aorta was frustrating. She indicated that she was going to bring her supervisor to take the right images as she was unable to do so. I offered for her to take a break but she said it was ok. I think her ego was at stake as she had an intern who was witnessing this process.

Since the test was a long one and my co-traveler in that moment was the technician, I felt my awareness going into the third gear (needed to climb an elevation!). With closed eyes and chanting hari om hari I sent positive thoughts and healing to the technician; at that moment I was totally disconnect from my own feeling of discomfort. After a few minutes my self awareness brought the feeling of gentler movements of the probe and ten minutes later the technician said she had completed the test. A feeling of gratitude arose and an instant thank you came out for the technician.

While driving back home, I went into some introspection and realized that the technician was tired and was carrying some negative baggage ( although I was her second patient of that morning). She was so stressed that her touch and her negative energy was making my body tense (or was it the reverse!). Perhaps my organs hid behind the bones to save themselves from being exposed to the negativity!! The moment my awareness was drawn to this, things changed. The half hour test went on for one hour only because my body was reacting to the negative energy and resisting the probe. Saw a live demo of energy exchange!!!

On a personal note, the sound of the blood gushing through my arteries mainly the aorta was a very humbling experience. The inner mechanism working ceaselessly without any interruption….and the outer-the mind causing all the interruptions, the hiccups!!! The mind creates images, then creating reactions to those images and building a story, mostly a negative ones… and on and on, never ending mind chatter…interrupts and blocks the inner extremely sophisticated functioning.

The inner self is extremely powerful and strong, it has the power to feel, adjust and heal itself if the mind does not cause hiccups! The mind creating fears, phobia, anxiety and stress brings the inner strength down. The inner self works on Divine principles of Nature…creating, perfecting and destroying. The blood gushing to flood the cells with oxygen and nutrients and then clearing the exhaust of the cells, goes on ceaselessly till the last breath. If I had to do all this work consciously with my mind I would be exhausted in no time!!! All organs perform their karm in surrender without any drama. They work when there is drama of a disease caused mainly by the ego of the mind. The lungs always connected to the Universal energies taking the life breath in and out in waking, unconscious and subconscious moments.

My naman and pranam to the Divine for making this flawless mechanism and my deep reverence to Meenaji for re-connecting me to my inner self. Gratitude to Nature for giving my being this human form. Praying that this ego dissolves and this being can serve and live every moment to perfection to realize the depths of truth, love, karm and light.

Pranam to All on this Guru Purnima

Mangalvar, 16-7-2019

Om kram kreem krom seh mangalaya namah!

Hari Om Hari